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But that's not what I'm talking about.
It's easy to get caught up in the busyness of our day to day lives . . . work, clean, cook, sleep, etc etc etc. Mr. Skooks and I do our best to communicate . . . a lot . . . but we end up having so many of our really deep heart to hearts when we drive back and forth from my parents' house. (2 1/2 hours of open road, 2 sleeping kids, and no TV, internet, or sewing machine will do that to you. ;) )
The drive home this past Sunday was no different. After a long day of football-watching (yes, we're crazy over football in our house), we took off down the road for another great heart exchange. Mr. Skooks posed me some tough questions and after some thought I decided that I wanted to share them with you.
For those of you who have been with me for awhile, you know that I have mused about and mentioned here and there the idea of opening up my own Etsy shop. I had it in my head to dream about selling my creations before I even started this blog, but I had no confidence in my abilities and wondered at who would ever pay me to make something for them. Not to mention the fact that in this economy it is hard to imagine being able to actually command a wage that would make all my hard work worthwhile. While I haven't completely sorted all these feelings out, I had Mr. Skooks there to start really prodding the answers out of me.
"How serious are you about this business idea?"
For months now Mr. Skooks has watched me busy myself and stretch my time on projects that have been given as gifts to my loved ones. And while he has been supportive of my desire to do this and taken full responsibility for the kids time after time so that I could have the time and space to do so, he has periodically asked me, "When are you going to start putting some of that time into your own dreams?"
Over the last year, he's listened to me drone on and on about all these creative bloggers and designers who make these amazing things. He's seen me taking furious notes while I sit at the computer, or read an inspiring book . . . and he's saying to me, "I'm ready for you to stop focusing on what everyone else is doing and start living your own dream. Regardless of the outcome."
He's right. Of course. There is no way to know what's out there if you never leave the house.
In my best "I'm not making excuses but really I can't start this second" voice, I did inform him of the few sewing goals I had for this month which will not move me towards making any kind of cash. Namely, I intend on making each of my kids a Christmas ornament to add to their "Mommy made me this" collections, and I would like to make each of them one gift for Christmas.
I already started cutting pieces out of my Holiday Happy fabric for my Christmas quilt, but I'm pretty sure it's a pipe dream that I can finish that in time to enjoy it for this holiday season. I figure I'll just work on it as I can fit it in and hopefully I'll be on the ball enough to enjoy it next Christmas. ;)
Oh yeah . . . I also wanted to be able to work on a bit more of my handmade nativity scene for the kids. Last year I was able to complete Mary, a Shepherd, and Baby Jesus . . . would like to at least get Joseph done this year. LOL.
BUT . . . AFTER THAT . . .
I do really want to start taking myself a little more seriously. Mr. Skooks and I began strategizing a plan that would get me some time to myself every day to sew, think, plan, and dream. I can't quit my day job so I won't be able to get in quite as many hours a day as I might like to on it, but every little time chunk will get me closer to realizing my dreams.
I know I'm not alone in feeling a bit selfish at times for taking time on my own. Moms as a rule tend to file their needs and wants behind a few other people in the family. It wasn't only "nice" to hear Mr. Skooks say that he wants me to work towards my goals, it was downright liberating.
I am truly blessed to have him as my husband.
Who are you thankful for today?